Konwahahawi: Starting the journey

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I have been thinking about weight loss surgery for the past 2 ½ years. I have researched and weighed my options. On November 1, 2011, I had my first assessment for gastric bypass. I weighed 270 lbs and I am 5ft 2 ¾.

watch I have never said that out loud but I am not ashamed because I love myself. I am beautiful and I am an amazing person. I will be having surgery within the next two weeks. It is the best gift I will ever give myself. I am completely over doing everything for everyone else or caring if people think my decision is crazy. I am ready to start a family and live my life to the fullest. I am trapped in this body. I am over it.


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http://secfloripa.org.br/esminer/6028 Konwahahawi is a 30-year-old Mohawk woman who has battled with weight her entire life. She is a traditional longhouse woman of the Deer Clan. She is a hard-working, book- reading, crafty, tattooed, multi-tasking woman who is working on her masters in education while working two jobs (aboriginal law & event planning). She is very much involved in youth advocacy, indigenous rights, women’s rights, community activism & philanthropy. She keeps her home immaculate while keeping her boyfriend of 5 years happy. She is a bi-polar, ex-self injured, beautiful plus size woman. This is her journey.