Fill me up, buttercup!

woman holding pink flip flops on a tropical beach
My future bikini body

I love a good holiday and usually go away with my best mate a couple of times a year. This year we haven’t been so lucky though as everything was put on hold due to my surgery. However, with some cunning secretive planning with my mum, I have just returned from two weeks in Gran Canaria as a surprise for my dad’s 60th birthday. My friend and I flew out, had a lovely relaxing week by ourselves and then surprised my dad when they arrived a week later. Fabulous.

At the beginning of the year when I finally got a date for surgery I couldn’t help imagine what it might be like six months after having the operation – What size clothes would my winter wardrobe contain? Would I be svelte for Christmas? Would I finally get that bikini body I’ve always envied on other women? Well, that last one’s a bit of a fantasy as I don’t think I’m built for a bikini body regardless of how much weight I lose but a girl can dream.

I suppose I’m still a bit disappointed with the progress I’ve made so far. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so very pleased with the weight I’ve lost and feel better about myself. I’m proud of the progress I’ve made but I’m a very impatient person. I’m the kind of person who would dearly love to play an instrument but I want to know how to play it now, I don’t want to have to learn. So hopefully I don’t sound ungrateful for the surgery or for the weight loss so far.

I had a hospital appointment just before I went on holiday where I got weighed and, for the first time in perhaps a year, I put on a couple of pounds. It was very disheartening but once again the nurse was very supportive and is still pleased with the progress I’m making. I’ve only had one band fill of 0.2ml since the surgery so this is expected. She said she would arrange for me to have a proper fill as soon as possible though so that was promising.

While I was sunning myself like a big beached whale in Gran Canaria, I received a letter with an appointment for the 17th December. So, yesterday I went along to the hospital to the imaging department. I had to lay on a table while the tilted me and turned me and then I drank some white gloopy fluid which showed that everything’s looking good with the band. Then (finally!) I had my first proper band fill since the surgery in June. I had 0.5ml inserted which now takes me up to 0.7ml. Hopefully this will now kick-start my weight loss again.

Lindsey and I will be going to Florida in April so I have a goal. I want to have lost more weight (obviously) so that I can go to the water parks and not feel all wobbly and podgy. I want to be able to ride on the rollercoasters without having to sit in the seats for the ‘larger’ frames. I want to go on the Harry Potter ride without having to have 3 people shoving the bar down onto me because it won’t close while everyone in the queue watches and I just want the ground to open up and swallow (even though that was the second time I rode it and didn’t have any problems the first time).

Anyway, it’s now all go – I really have to be careful what I eat again and how fast as well as making sure I’m properly chewing my food. After almost seven months of waiting I think I’m now finally on my way to getting my bikini body!

Maybe ;)